I started my life journey as an actor.
I’ve always thought of making art as psychological warfare, in that you are up against your worst enemy -- you. Your own worst beliefs about yourself and the world around you. The deafening silence of sending out an audition or a script or a film -- and hearing nothing back.
Being an artist requires endless confidence in what you can do and what you want for yourself. It requires dedicated focus to build a community that supports and sustains you. It requires staying true to your passion and your dream while also navigating the practical realities of paying your bills and being a contributing member of society.
I did not have these skills when I started out as an actor, and I fumbled. A lot. It destroyed my sense of self, my ideas of who I wanted to be in the world. I wanted so badly to please the people I thought were in charge and running things. Funny thing is -- no one person is running all the things. So this amorphous person I was trying to please didn’t exist. But I was making myself crazy, thinking I was failing them.
I set myself on a journey of self discovery. I read Tony Robbins. I enrolled in Mama Gena’s School of Womanly Arts. I studied with the sexologist Jaiya and learned her Erotic Blueprints system. I trained with Charles Muir in Tantra Yoga. I schooled with the modern witch Carolyn Elliott on Chaos Magick. I apprenticed under the former Dominatrix and Taoist nun Kasia Urbaniak and her work on power dynamics.
And I have read all the books. I am a serious self development junkie, fascinated by the ways in which we can live fuller, more deeper, more connected, happier lives.
I still make movies. I write and produce my own now. And I teach women how to develop their innate intuition, practical magic, embodied connections, sacred self care and irreverent pleasure as sources for empowered leadership and divine living.
I'd love to hear from you if anything in this site resonated with you.